I feel like every generation goes through life thinking about how easy the new generations has it, and in some areas that's true. For example the internet/Google, has been a great help with research projects and efficiency. But in other aspects I don't really feel like the adults of today understand what it's like to be a young person in this generation. Sometimes I feel like adults now are just rolling their eyes at us for having life be so "easy", but they aren't our age living this life. What I mean is that they grew up one way and are now seeing two sides of the story. But when you've grown up with this all your life, this is all you know. I look back at the early 2000s and think these thoughts sometimes, and I'm not even in my 20's yet! I look back and think about how our phones where the small flip phones and how you would have to press the 5 button two times to get out a "g" or whatever letter you wanted. Going back even farther, when they were just coming out with cell phones, they were these huge phones. I tell you this because every generations has their own struggles and we need to be a little more compassionate about it. We will never be that age again and we will only be a teenager once. Adults just don't get the hard times we go through even without adding social media to the list. I feel like there are some things about past generations that were defiantly harder than what we have today, like the drafting system for war. But back then they didn't have to worry about cyber bullying, and stuff that has to do with the internet. We all need to be more sympathetic to the past and present generations. No one will understand the generations like the people who actually live through them. But I do feel like there is something to be said about growing up in these times. I believe that if we could trade these times and experiences most wouldn't. Just because every generation has their own successes and they all have their great failures too. If we really where to analyze the times back then and if the people could have done that for today's time periods, I think not many would change them. You are shaped by the time periods and that is what helps you grown and become who you are.
I don't know why people try so hard to cover up what they have on the inside. As in, they try to make it look like they are perfect and that nothing gets to them, or that they don't make any mistakes. Then you have other people who are just so ashamed of what they have done or what they think of themselves as. Those people just don't even like to think of themselves as worth anything. But in reality we all have darkness inside of us, it's just a thing. We need to realize no one is perfect and that no one is a monster. I have done stuff I'm not proud of and you have done stuff you're not proud of but that doesn't make us monsters. You hear of people fighting with the demons within them and that's what it is. We all have monsters inside us, but that doesn't make us monsters, it makes us humans. People think that if they do something wrong they are less of a person than what they were before. We have all felt that way before in life. It's about being human, everyone has their demons and monsters inside them that they fight. I'm not saying that we have to go and show everyone that we do, but what I am saying is that we don't have to be so ashamed of them. Or else we wouldn't be going through this thing we call life. Everyone has them, and the sooner we accept that fact you can then realize how beautiful this world and it's people really are. To be able to come to terms with that reality is a big step, but it makes you look at things differently. I know that I have to remind myself that no ones perfect and that's ok. "...You're not a monster, I'm not a monster, but we have monsters inside of us..." That line is best, because we have people in our lives we love and who love us, even with our flaws. We look past those thing because we love you and you love them to do the same. You will struggle and fall but everyone struggles with stuff sometimes. This does not make us an less of a person, it just makes us human. Seeing that people have faults and being able to look past them is a big thing, it can show them that you will love them no matter what. Some people aren't that lucky, most are though, and we have to be accepting of others and their faults. We struggle, they struggle, we should be there for one another and together we can get though it.
I would say most things in life you can escape one way or another. For example school work, you can just let home work go, you could just not come to school, etc. Now if you don't do things there can be really bad consequences for not doing them. But one thing that you can't escape is your own mind. No one will every know you like you know you. Sometimes you have problems that you just can't let go of and you don't even know why. Other people can look at your problem and say stuff like, "Why don't you just let go of it?" or "If it's stressing you out then just deal with the problem or ask someone to help you with it." But what they don't understand is if it were that easy don't you think we would have gotten rid of that problem a long time ago? Yes, I believe that. Why would anyone want to be stress? Why would they want to carry around heartache and problems? The weight of life can get to you sometimes, I defiantly know it gets to me a lot. It can be just little things like, when I should mow the lawn again, all the way to, what am I going to do for college. Everyone has their own inner battles they have to fight. Nothing says you need to do it by yourself but no one will understand your situation or mind set like you do. That's another thing, people think that they are burdening others by telling them their problems but sometimes you just need to let it out. You don't have to do it in a complaining way. I think that's one of my concerns, that by telling others I am burdening them with my problems. But you sometimes have to over come that. Sometimes it feels like we are just hanging on by a thread, and if we could just let go of all the baggage we carry, our lives would be so much more easier. I have to keep reminding myself though that once this hard time is passed I will be a stronger person because of it. And after it's all over I do feel stronger, but when you're going through that hard time it can be hard to have that mind set. Hope is what keeps me going, the hope that things will get better. Just keep holding onto that.
We all look for approval in life, it can come from your parents, friends, other family, a boss, whatever it is we all look for it. And when it's some one you really care about you want to make them proud of you and have them support you. But when they don't support you or they have a different view of something and tell you in a harsh way, it can really hurt us. For me it's my mom, all I want is for her to be proud of me and have her support me. Sad to say that doesn't always happen, we just see life differently and she has her ways and opinions just like I have mine. I feel like when I really have a passion for something and she doesn't share that passion with me and she makes it very clear she doesn't it really hurts. Now, I could just listen to her and drop it or I could keep fighting because I have a passion for it. I don't want you to think I am trying to be rebellious and that I totally discard what my mom says. I am just saying that if I really want something bad enough I should be prepared for others to not see it the same way. This also goes for when people say something unkind or call you a mean name or something. That can also hurt and make you feel unimportant. "...Every wound will shape me, every scar will build my throne..." When someone you love hurts you by not saying what you wanted to hear or someone calls you a mean name will become part of your throne. All the heart hurt you have, all of the disapproval from society, what ever it maybe. You are a strong and independent person, and you are a fighter. You will get knocked down and beaten, but you will come out of it stronger than when you entered. "...Rebuild all that you've broken..." people won't always see your point of view and sometimes they try to destroy your individuality. But you can over come that, they might have broken your wall but you can rebuild it bigger and stronger. Believe in yourself that you can over come whatever it is you are struggling with. People don't always mean to hurt you with what they say, but that doesn't mean it still hurts any less. Just keep fighting and you'll have a throne that you made with your own experiences.
"...No body else needs to know where we might go, we could just run down red lights..." That line right there is one of my all time favorite lines because you are your own person and no one can tell you what to do with your future or you life. You are your own person, and if you really just want to go where your heart takes you then I think you should. I guess you could say that sounds kind of rebellious, but I feel like that's true. You are a strong human being and sometimes you have to go your own way and make your own path. Go and explore this beautiful world and all it has to offer. To be free and want to experience life for yourself and not how others want you to experience it that can take a lot of courage to do. I love this song because when I listen to it, sparks the wonder inside of me. That side of me that just wants to get out and live and explore, learn about different cultures without being in a classroom learning about it. Really a hands on experience. When the song says "...there ain't no reason to stay..." I feel like now that I am getting older and am becoming more independent I have less and less of a reason to stay where I am. Yes, I will miss my family but with all this technology we have I would never be far from them. So going somewhere unknown to me and learning about stuff that really interests me is something that I feel like my heart is really longing for. When your life is somewhere else then I think you need to take that leap of faith and just go do it! Why would you want to be somewhere for the rest of your life if you hate it or if you're not happy there? Like why would you do that? You are free to explore this earth and if that's what my heart wants me to do and if I want to do it, then I will try everything in my power to do it. I want to explore and learn about new things in new places. That longing for something more in my life, that since of knowing when you're on your deathbed, that you did what you wanted to do and had a great time doing it, is something I want. I am just thinking about all the people you will have gotten to meet and all the wonderful experiences you will have had.
When you are looking back at your life one day what will you think? For me I want to know that I took all the chances and opportunities that were given to me! I want to know that I did it all, and no matter if it turned out wonderful or if it turned out horrible, at least I tried. You can't predict the future to know if some decision you're making will be a bad one, but even if it is you can look back and know that you gave it your all. I don't want to be on my deathbed and have all these regrets, about how I wished I would have done something. Living life to the fullest and just trying new things even though it might be scary. I'm not saying that you should make bad choices just to say you did them knowing that they were bad choices. But not knowing that they were going to turn out bad is another. I would like to inspire others though the way I live my life. Sometimes you need to take chances and live with the choices and decisions you made no matter if they were good or bad. Show ownership of your decisions, be them good or bad ones. You are human and you need to show others that you are, and that you're ok with making mistakes sometimes. Owning up to them makes you are stronger. Others can look at that and think what they want but all that really matters is what you think. You got to just go and live your life sometime before it's to late. That's what I want to do. I read a quote once that said "As your knowledge increases, wonder deepens." I love that quote, because to me it makes so much since. Why would I not want to learn more about different cultures and just get out there and live? As I learn more about stuff I'm actually interesting in makes my wonder about the rest of the world deepen. I love thinking about all the new stuff out there and how want to travel and explore. I'm going places so I can learn about them, and be immersed in the culture. Now this is not for everyone, but when you find what your passion or calling is, you won't want to look back and think "Oh, I should have done that." No one wants to look back at their life and think that, why would you want to? I feel like all that would bring you is depression, and now you're to old to do anything about it. Just go where your heart takes you and live!
Everyone goes through really hard times in life. You just can't go though life without troubles. Now, for some people it's really hard for them to let others in to help them out with their struggles, or they have a hard time even telling people about their problems. I have a hard time telling people. Sometimes it can seem like a weakness to tell people you have struggles in your life, but there's nothing to be ashamed of. We are not perfect and sometimes we need help. Maybe you don't need help but to tell someone what's bugging you can help. Just to have someone listen so you can just let it all out helps. I know and I've tried and it can really help. You can feel better afterward. There's a part of the song that goes, "...No, I won't, I won't pretend to know what you've been through You should know, I wish it was me, not you..." and I really like that part of the song, because we all have problems and no one has the same problems. We all need someone that can help us though these hard times. And who knows maybe you and that person can help each other get through tough times. Showing someone just how much you love them by trying to help them means a lot. I think of parents and what they do to try and help their children. When their child is struggling, the parents just want to take away that pain and that's kind of what the song is saying. We need to lean on each other to help one another stand and have the strength to face anther day. No one has to do this journey along, that's why I believe we have people. Taking on the world with a friend or someone can make the difference. "...Look in my eyes I will never dissert you..." in the song means that have a friend or someone you can do life with. Your friend can be there when you need someone to lean one, just like you can be there for them when they need someone.
To me this song just makes me think about how I have my own dreams and hopes for the future and it doesn't matter what other people think about them. If they don't like my dreams or the way I see things then that's your problem. I don't wake up ever morning trying to please those people. Sometimes you just need to come to terms with having a dream that you are on fire for! Even if no one else shares that fire or passion with you. Once you have something that you really believe in, I think nothing can stop you. You are making that dream your own work of art. Yes, I believe other people can influence your "art" but all in all it is your work not theirs. It won't matter what others think about you or your dreams. It's all about realizing that you have the power over your own future. It helps when others share your dreams and hopes for the future but you need to understand that not everyone will. I know I feel like that sometimes it makes me sad, and can hurt but I just have to keep remembering that I am on fire for this dream of mine and that I really want it to happen. I want to make that dream a reality. Having hopes and dreams that I am just on fire for makes getting up and going through life worth something. To have a goal even is getting you somewhere, or why else would you be here if you didn't have hopes and dreams for the future. "...Finally think I what I'm chasing after..." is a great line because once you find what you are on fire for you are unstoppable. You will want to share them with others in the hopes that they will share it with you. Opening up to others and together you can all accomplish great things. As a kid it is hard to go after your dreams just because you are a kid. But when you get older like me, that changes and you will start to have more and more freedom. More room to express yourself and your hopes, dreams, and goals for the future.